Laying it on thicker.

Reach.

2012-02-14T07:23:00.000-08:00

Well i guess i should write about this sooner or later.
I've resigned.
and i am now an official penganggur.

Might be up and out looking for a part-time job sometime after i get bored of the jobless life. 'Side i might really need money, sometimes i jabs my heart a little looking at ma.

*facepalm* I'm such a fail. I didn't bring my camera to take pictures for this post. damnit.

I went to send in my work uniform today.
Bought macarons for them, lemon, strawberry and chocolate.
Joanne looked very happy when i bought them to the office.

Anyways, i hung out with them for a while and i stomach decided that i was hungry so i headed down to McD.
Knowing that I didn't really need to do anything anymore, i procrastinated and grazed through this one pamphlet they had on the counter. It had a Kung Fu Panda cover. I took the pamphlet and ordered myself a good ol' Double Cheeseburger and Milo.
I set down at a table that i usually sit during breakfast hours before work and spent around 3 hours practice-sketching Kakashi. I'm still not used to Naruto drawings, Bleach drawings seems so so much easier.

Went back up to MPH and followed Rebecca, Joshua, Sarvesse, Wahidah, Khalilah and Rahmat for break. No matter how annoying these people are, i'll have to admit that i'll miss working with them. Fhatin, Sufi and Syazwan joined in after some people on our table left. Stayed with them and followed them back to Studio R. Caught up with Fhatin and all of her stories. I miss hanging out with her, i swear.

So after such a long time hanging around and 'menganggur'-ing, i decided to go home and bam!
You'll never guess who i met.
I met REENA! she came back from London for a short holiday. It's been a while since i last met her, i don't even remember when. She was with her one of her friends from there- Tall, fair and pretty- Pixie. Followed them for a while, go shopping and all. and before i went home, we met AJ. Turns out I've met AJ before, he ordered one of his Lady Gaga books from MPH and i answered the call actually. Small small world.

Overall, today's a pretty awesome day.
Yeah, i might have just made it sound very short and boring.
But i can't never tell the whole story.

Oh, and i hear they're bringing forward our SPM results.
End of February, they said.
Please no, i know i'll miss my friends more after results comes out.
Why did we even wish that we'll grow up?

Le gasp.

2012-02-12T05:39:00.000-08:00

HOLLY MOTHER OF BLOGGERS.
My last three posts are all about shippuuden.
I need to get a life.
The end.

Here comes the fangirl.

2012-02-07T22:25:00.001-08:00

I WANT ONE.
SHUT UP AND TAKE MY MONEY.

Meh.

2012-02-01T09:04:00.000-08:00

I had something in mind for this post just now.
But...

I just can't seem to recall what's it about. Yes, shotgun me. No, it has nothing to do about Naruto Shippuuden/Bleach. Sorry dear reader(s), i'll update sooner or later tho.
Been facing this memory problem ever since i can remember.

Well, i'll just leave this here for now.
Hahahahahahaha.
He's so adorable ♥

NOOOOOOOO.

2012-01-30T05:47:00.000-08:00

SHIPPUUDEN, Y U SO MEAN?
FIRST YOU KILLED OFF ASUMA.
THEN HIDAN.
THEN DEIDARA.
NOW, JIRAIYA?

Y U NO KILL BITCH ASS SASUKE? WHY?!

______________________
Edited.
_____________________

I've just read a spoiler.
Kakashi dies too. But then magically lives again.
HOW LONG DO YOU PLAN ON KILLING ALL MY FAVOURITE CHARACTERS AND NOT SASUGAY? GAHHH.

あほやろ。

2012-01-26T07:11:00.000-08:00

Okay so yes, as promised. Here's the post. Please pardon, no racism/hatred intended here, i was just emotionally challenged.

Today i had to work full shift, and went to work like ever other day. Woke up, took shower, went to work, got breakfast and scanned in for work.

I swear i think the people that came today are pretty disturbed in their heads. No seriously, i get that it's a public holiday and such, but why in the fuck would you want to hang out in a bookstore? like duuuuuuuuuuuuude, seriously.

So yes. The people that came today are pretty.. how should i say- so that i won't sound like one pms bitch?- i guess i should just put it in such a way that maybe they forgot to pay their brain bills? Please, forgive me. Judge me all you want, i might just be emo and was only fueled by teenage angst.

So there was this one lady who came with a boy around my age- well, my age i guess, he was wearing a PLKN t-shirt, i know so because i had saw Aizat's before- i assume the lady is the mother, and so they asked about this one book and coincidentally, the book was out of stock hence i had to call up another outlet to transfer their stock here. And to do so the fella who wants the book has to pay an amount of deposit, which is half the price of the book.

Fella: Can i pay the deposit with the book voucher?
Me: I'm sorry, but you can't do so. You'll need to pay cash.
Fella: Why?
Me: Because it's like that.
The fella's mom: Why can't we use? Ridiculous.
Me: Well, it's like this. You CAN use the voucher, but the deposit needs to be in cash.
Fella: But i want to pay with book voucher.
Me: YOU CAN PAY WITH BOOK VOUCHER. JUST NOT THE DEPOSIT. (Serious time ni aku dah macam nak cirit dekat muka dia dah.)
Fella: Why do i need to pay half only? Nevermind, i pay full with book voucher.
Fella's mom: Ya la, nevermind we pay full.
Me in my head: OH MY GOD, TAK PAHAM BAHASA KA, CIBAI?

And then there was this other fella. Some Chinese guy called up, i had to sit at the enquiry today since Mat's only on morning shift. So yes, this other bozo called.

Bozo: Hello.
Me: Yes, hello. MPH Gurney Plaza, Izati speaking how can i help you?
Bozo: Hello.
Me: Yes, hello?
Bozo: Yes, hello.
Me: Can i help you sir?
(and by this time there was this one kid and a few more customers looking at me tak sabaq-sabaq nak suruh aku cari buku, i mean i'm on the phone fucker, wait for your turn la kan, fucker.) yes, sorry. and so the bozo was like
Bozo: Just now i called, i got reserve three books. got ar?
Me: Can i know who did you speak to?
Bozo: I didn't speak to anyone.

Yes, you wouldn't know how mentally tortured i was to be surrounded by idiots today.
Another one was

Kid: Aunty ahhhhhh.
Me: Hmm? (layan je la kan, aunty pun aunty la.)
Kid: Aunty ahhhhhhhhhhh!
Me: Yes? can i help you?
Kid: Hihihihihihihihiihihihihi.
Me: (stares at kid blankly)
Kid: (speaks some random Chinese shiz prolly asking me about something.)
Me: Huh? Sorry i don't speak Chinese.
Kid: This book got in Chinese ar? (points at a book with that IS in Chinese)

Yes, please do Freddie Mercury ultra-high-angle reverse facepalm yourselves. And no, that wasn't the end of it.

Really old Aunty: Ah miss ah, help me find a book ah.
Me: Okay, title please?
ROA: The one the Dr Mahathir book leh. You know ah? The one the Dr. Mahathir one.
Me: Doctor in the house ka?
ROA: Haaaaa. Ya la, that one la. What are you doing, cepat la cari.
Me in my head putting up two middle fingers: Okay, hang on ah aunty, i go find.

and so i found the book.

ROA: Haaa, this one lah.
Me: Yes, this one lah.
ROA: No discount ah?
Me: No, this one just came in.
ROA: How much the price?
Me pointing at price ticket: here.
ROA: No discount ah?
Me: No, no discount, aunty.
ROA: Why i go see that one store got discount one?
Me: Mana saya nak tau.
ROA: Here no discount ah? Popular got discount one.
Me: Sini bukan Popular, aunty.

Haram gila, aku taktau nak kata. Lepas tu sekoq lagi mai.

Guy: I'm looking for a book.
Me: Yes sir? I can help you find it.
Guy: It's about this one story. (then he went raving on about this one story about a guy who was a fan of something and something, i wasn't really listening because at that moment got this one lady yang macam cibai tak sabaq-sabaq takmau ikut turn.)
Me: Maybe i could look up the book for you sir, can i have the title?
Guy: I don't know the title.
Me: Well, maybe the author?
Guy: I don't know the author.

Oh god, please save them from permanent stupidity.

Well i should stop, i've been facepalm-ing my self for a gazillion times that my had could just go through my face if this post continues. I just hope tomorrow wouldn't be as stupidly awkward as today.

Thank you for listening (well um, reading actutally) my rantings here today. Just needed to vex out some stress i've been coping just now. Only god knows how i could have survived.
Till then, matta ne.

So sorry it's over.

2012-01-19T08:07:00.000-08:00

So i was thinking.
Yes, about my next step.

A few of my friends had started early for college, and i'm still here working.
Woah, not complaining there. Working is great. I think i've developed a few skills working here in MPH. Like what you ask? Well, if you insist that you want to know. I might have developed this really awesome skill of ripping the plastic wrapper with one hand and without ruining the book. I think i'd also gain this one skill of scanning through bookshelves without really looking and finding the book. And i might have mastered the art of mentally killing someone in your head and hold up a really good debate with substance. Okay, yes. Thay're pretty much useless. But at least i wake up early and comb my hair now.

Anyways, I still haven't get my driving license.
And half of the people i know now already have a car and a license to go with. Bleh, spoiled spoiled bitches. And i'm just jealous.
I hope that i'm not really wasting time here working.

I might even reconsider Architecture.
Fck i don't even like maths to start with.
I don't like anything.
I might as well get a major on doing nothing.
Ahh, this is so not uber cool.

Well yes.
Till then, don't hold your breath for my next post.
Bye bye.

Bacchikoi.

2012-01-18T04:05:00.000-08:00

Life for me has been a bit boring.
I've got to remind myself that i still need to study.
Bila la gaji nak masuk, bleh.

Till then.
Sore ja, bye bye.

Ni.

2012-01-05T03:51:00.000-08:00

So i am inside my room with my door closed typing things out and suddenly i heard Aizat saying,
Bro: Charger phone rosak.
Mama: HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA? (really loud)
Bro: Charger phone rosak.
Mama: CHARGER PHONE ROSAAAAAAAAAK? (louder)
Papi (just came back home from prayers and rushing to open the pad-lock): CHARGER PHONE ROSAK?!

Hahaha oh my god. Kalut gila family aku.

Mama was away in KL for the whole week last week,
and then she went to Sabah with Papi this monday.
They're back home now.
and i just want to tell the whole world,

I MISS THEM SO MUCH! haha.

Clouds.

2012-01-03T19:37:00.001-08:00

Hello.
Well yes, i'm supposed to be off to work now.
In another half an hour or so atleast.
Rapid doesn't wait for you, you know.

I don't know why,
But i woke up this morning feeling so unmotivated.
I felt like i wanted to lie on my bed the whole day.
Couldn't get proper rest last night, and now i just feel exhausted.
I'm tired, i need a change.
Work is tiring, i want a change.

Great, i might end up as a job-hopper in the near future.
Woo hoo, lovely.

I wanna stay at home today.
I'm just so so so tired. ):

Amber Pacific.

2012-01-03T01:23:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow's the first day of school for 2012.
And to be completely honest, I really really do miss school.
There was still so much things that i could have done.
So much things that i could have fixed back then.
If only i'd realized before.
I wouldn't have to live with this regret.

i hope everyone's doing fine. I miss all of you!

Horse.

2012-01-02T05:22:00.000-08:00

Woah, i'm such an ignorant selfish bitch.
Didn't even wished you people a Happy New Year, didn't i?

Well hey, happy new year.
Start strong, finish stronger.
2011 has been great, but i'm hoping this year would be better.

And nope, i don't really have a new year's resolution this year.
I haven't thought of it yet actually.
Then again, what was my 2011's resolution?
Heck did i even cross out any of those 'resolutions' from the list?
I should go and check my previous posts, maybe i did post about it here, then again, i always do.

Ah, well yes. I did not did the countdown.
I slept for a year, if you get what i mean. ;)
Till then, ja minna-san.

Got shot by Syahirah Syukri.

2011-12-28T20:47:00.000-08:00

So yeah, i was happily reading latest posts today and- bam!- Syahirah tagged me in this one post. I don't usually do these types of posts, but hell i have all the time in the world now since i'm off from work today.

Well, yes. I'm running low on witty subjects to write on. Maybe i should write about my workplace soon, yes maybe i should. Well, till then, here goes:

Rules / Peraturan :
pertama sekali , korang mestilah kena post peraturan nie
kedua korang mestilah ceritakan atau describe 11 perkara tentang diri korang
kemudian , jawab soalan yang dikemukakan oleh orang yang men-tag korang tu dan buat soalan baru untuk orang yang akan anda tag tu pulak
seterusnya macam biasalah tag kepada 11 orang dan link mereka dalam post
lepas tu korang pergi lah dekat blog diorang ke , pesbuk diaorang ke , beritahu diaorang yang korang dah tag dia dalam permainan nie
NO TAG BACK :)
and lastly , no stuff in the tagging section about " YOU ARE TAGGED IF YOU ARE READING THIS " you legitimately a.k.a Really , Trust with all Honest have tagged 11 people

11 things about me eh? Bleh.

1) Papito said he misspelled my name in my birth cert where i am supposedly to have a double Z in my name. "Izzati" instead of "Izati".
2) Out of all places to get cut and bruises i hate to get them on my fingers.
3) Unlike Syahirah, I eat veggies because i am scared i'll get constipated. Yes, true fact.
4) I think Hatake Kakashi is very husband-worthy. He's tall, caring, smart, mature, he reads and a pervert.

5) As outgoing and friendly i am, i hate human beings.
6) I have once made a list of my classmates that who i would kill in order from first to last- and how i would kill them- if i was in Battle Royale. No, i would not post that list.
7) I would hate a band if they went mainstream no matter how good they are. For instance, Paramore. They were one of my favourite bands- EVER. Then they went mainstream, and i came find that it's very very hard for me to like them again. I know it's stupid, for you to like a band, you would want them to succeed right? But it's just the fact that everyone goes, "omg omg omg (insert mainstream band name here) is so EPICZZ." it's freakin annoying.
8) I feel very inferior around my sister because i think she's way prettier than i am.
9) I hate doing things together with someone i know, i prefer to do something alone, if you get what i mean.
10) I have a Nikon 3100 named Shotgun.
11) I now do not like or dislike any colour.

Saa, Questions from Syahirah:

Numero uno: What's the best thing have ever happened in your life ?
Woah, deja vu. Someone had asked me the same question before, and somehow i couldn't really answer. But hey honestly, the best thing that had happened is maybe that i've met some of the greatest people throughout my life. Though, i still have that strong feeling that something better than that is going to happen in the near future. ;)

Numero dos: Do you like camping ?
As a child, yes maybe. But i've grown up pretty spoiled to be staying overnight in a tent. Although the thought of marshmallow and air pollution through bon fires seems very intriguing.

Numero tres: Who is/are your best friend(s)

Ha, am i the only person that find this question funny? Well, the thing is, when you're always on good terms with EVERYONE, you'll never do have that one or two friends that is always with you. Well, maybe the real bestfriends that i'd ever had was probably Akram in kindy- and then we went to separate schools and never met- so basically he's not counted as the current bestfriend. There was Atiqah in primary school, i met her in Standard 4, we somehow amazingly share same interests, Linkin Park was one of it- I've rarely met her now ever since we grew up and went to different high schools, the only time we meet was in school events where we said our common Hi's and Bye's. And then there's Reena, I love this bitch. But then she dumped me and left me here all alone and went off to Billy-Shakespeare land, but we still stay in contact. So to conclude all that, I am Forever Alone lvl:9999.

Numero cuatro: Which one would be your first priority ? Friends or family ?
Family hands down. Not to be an asshole towards my buddies anyways, i love them as much but yeah, i love my family more.

Numero cinco: What kind of vacations do you like ?
Anywhere would do actually. I'm itching for an adventure, but i'm stuck with work and an empty wallet.

Numero seis: Do you smoke ?
Nope i do not smoke. I.. er, do not like smoky places? It's jsut that smoke suffocates me quick man. The smell of carbon is just horrible. And the smell of cigarette is just as twice as horrible and suffocating.

Numero siete (i think?): Are you the first child in your family ? If you are, do you like it ?
Nope i am not. I am the spoiled last child of three. With a blond but smart sister and a brother that only feeds me nasi kandar when mama's away in KL. In a way, i love being the last child, i don't get the first blame. :D

Numero.. er, number eight: Tv or Internet ?
Internet. I mean, why TV? You can watch shows online too you know. Plus, the national tv show crap. And when they show something really good, it'll overlap with the other good show on a different channel. Piece of shit i tell you. So yes, internet all the way. The funny thing is, when adults ask us this, they'll only think we'll go on Facebook. Oh pleaaaaaaaaaase, Facebook it a piece of crap too. Hello? Haven't you heard of youtube?

Number nine: Can you live without your cellphone ?
Yep. But i know i'll get really pissed for losing it because i have to go on Facebook and post some stupid status like, "Omg you guyzzz, i lost my cellular. Inbox your number plz plz plz.". Not cool begging wei, not cool.

Number ten: What kind of questions do you expect from me ? haha.
Ingat nak bagi yang lebih mencabar minda dan emosi. Hahahahaha

Number eleven: Your ambition ?
Aku nak jadi ninja ahhhhhhh. Macam syiok ja. hihi

Anyhoo, no i'm not going to ask anything. And no, i'm not gonna tag 11 people.
I'm such a badass, that i break the game rules, oh yeaaaaaaah. :D

Till then, i'm off. I wanna go buy myself some Gatorade.
Ta.

Get out of this place while we still have time.

2011-12-22T16:17:00.000-08:00

It's now 8.17am.
Yes you reader(s) must be mindblown by now, only reading the first line of this post.

"Why in the f__ is Izati Hashim up so early today?"

or probably just,

"Perempuan ni duk merapu apa? Aku tak terkejut apa pun."

I hate working. Oh no, don't get me wrong. I love my work.
It's not as much of a burden like in school, and the people there are super nice.
But, I swear it is 10 times as tiring as in school.
I come back home everyday, my legs and arms tired.
TAK AKU BUKAN NAK COMPLAIN.
I'm just saying, to those who've not worked and is looking for a job. DON'T.
Really, don't look for a job, you'll feel so emo after that.

Oh well, i should get going.
Would be late for the morning shift if i started rambling on and on.
'Till next time, ja.
See you when i see you. :)

Grimmjow.

2011-12-15T02:59:00.000-08:00

Is Legendary, I give you that.

Got shot by cupid.

2011-12-09T08:16:00.000-08:00

Went to look for a job today with Wahidah in Gurney.
Got back home by Rapid, and stopped on the way at Island Plaza.
Wanted to go to Leo Bookstore on the 1st Floor.
And my god, I could live there i tell you.
When i got there, i even sat on the floor in between two aisle and took off my shoes, yes that's how cozy it is.
So yeah, I sat on the floor there cross-legged and barefooted- getting all cozy with a really nice book that i really wanted to buy but i didn't have enough money then- and cling-cling goes the bell tied on the handle of the shop's door and there enter the most beautiful creature i have seen (okay knowing me, this is definitely a hyperbole, and yes it is a hyperbole). So this guy walked in, most probably much more older than i am, with his skateboard and backpack. He stashed his backpack at one corner of the racks and saw me sitting there and smiled. And there i died happy. The end.

I bought myself Pygmy.
There was Choke too but like i said, i'm low on cash.
That's why I'm planning on working.

Well, that's it for now. I have a job interview for MPH tomorrow, better go get myself sober looking for now. Till then, behave everyone. ;)

It's only 2..

2011-12-07T10:00:00.000-08:00

I have my last two papers tomorrow. Ah, no today to be exact.
My sleep pattern's been disrupted from staying up late and waking up late.
This is a pain. I'm actually worried if I'll screw up EST.
I mean, it's an extra sack of potatoes that i chose on my own free will to carry on my shoulders.
It would be embarrassing to not to ace this one.

It's been a while since i posted some long-ass post. My recent posts all seem so short and... brief?
Well nhmm, i don't really have an explanation for that. Maybe I'd just been uninspired and lifeless nowadays. Yes yes, not really a good excuse huh? Push me off a bridge.

Okay moving on, its been a while. But recently people on Facebook kept posting about their useless confessions. They're posting petty 'confessions' that no one wants to know of (i.e: I'm eating cereal) So how about i show you people what a confession really is? Open up your heart, and listen to what i have to say. This is my confession.

Every single time- and i really do mean every time- when someone says "Ala, kau dah lahir pandai" or something alike, it's like having a blade stabbed right through my heart over an over again. I would just deny it and keep quite. But now i would like to truly CONFESS about how i really feel when you people say so. It's like being my heart put on flames. I am infuriated about this. I am furious about it. I am mad.

Why?

Why won't anyone notice the horrifying amount of hard work that i had to go through to become... smart? To achieve that aim you've been chasing around all your life. Why won't anyone notice how hard I strived. And yet, you people just simply put in words and conclude that I AM BORN SMART? What the hell. Stop fucking around! I am just as same as everyone of you. And to be honest, I am probably on a lower level than everyone of you out there. I was not born smart. I STRIVED HARD. I wasn't raised to be equipped with any talent, though i was put in an English-based kindergarten where i did learn my english. Alhamdulillah. But that isn't the problem, after kindy i wasn't sent to another English-based school. And plus, I wasn't even all that great in primary school. I was not a genius, i was not smart. But i worked hard. Please, to even state that I was born smart, go kill yourself. I couldn't even memorize the basic 'Sifir 1-12' until i was 12, before UPSR. But I still can't remember Sifir 7 and 12. I have to use my fingers for Sifir 9 and the watch for Sifir 5. I still use the dictionary to check my spelling. I still read kid novels to check on my sentences. I was never in the first class until Standard 5. And when i got in the first class, i never did get even a top 10.

And now in high school, I still am the same person. I am not born smart, i am not a genius. I work hard, but it guess it's not hard enough. There's no streaming, but i've never got straight A's in school. Except for my PMR where i really did put all of my heart and soul and sacrificed ever second of my time to work for it. I am never in the top 50 in my Form. I ALWAYS get either 15, 14, 13, or 12 in class. No i am not bragging, i am telling all you pea-brains out there that God is fair. That amount of effort you put in something, would show how much the result is. What you reap is what you sow.

I am just as equal as anyone of you out there. But please, stop saying that everything is how it is. You have the power to change your life. So change it, change your life with your own hands. Work for it and pray hard for it.

God is fair.

Scary Monsters Vs. Nice Sprites.

2011-12-03T11:21:00.000-08:00

Oh Yeaaaaaahhh, let's see how i should celebrate my post-SPM lif-

*gets shot twice*

I'M NOT FREAKING DONE WITH IT YET.
UGH, THE WAITING IS A TORTURE, I GIVE YOU THAT.

Bros before hoes.

2011-11-18T07:36:00.000-08:00

Haha, i somehow miss having my brother around.
A few more papers and I'm going to be done with SPM!
For now, I will do my very best and own Add Maths, Agama and Physics next week!

Just one more step.

2011-11-12T05:51:00.000-08:00

Dear god,
i am scared to death.

It's this Monday. I'm running low on self-esteem by now.
Shorten of breath, increase of rate of heartbeat, i feel it. I feel it all.
Adrenaline rushing beneath my skin, intoxicating. This is a long run that i am about to finish.
I promise.

I'll do my best. I'll do my very best.

Eleven.

2011-10-01T08:03:00.000-07:00

I see a change coming in the near future.
Whether it's good or bad, i can't tell tho.
Ha, proves that i can never give away tarot readings.

A place for my head.

2011-09-20T08:25:00.000-07:00

The top 10 things i now truly regret doing this year:

10) Not join much Judo comp.
Yes, i know. I really really miss judo. I miss the adrenalin rush you get when you step into the mat. I miss letting go on all the tension held on my shoulders by chocking every single person i get the chance to. I miss being the small and deadly one. I miss how judo keeps a check on my weight every month. I'd gained a lot of weight this past few months. And please don't ever mention about the Kata thing again. It's heartbreaking. I don't even think Sensei would give me another chance next year, i blew it off this year and last year already.

9) Watching Anime.
Kurosaki Ichigo. I HATE YOU. If i will ever flunk my papers again, i will kill you. Seriously. I hate you, dammit. I hate hate you. But then again, I don't really regret watching Bleach. It was the one that gave me back my spirit to pick my pen back up and start drawing over again after i gave up two years back.

8) Not save up money earlier this year.
I'm fucken broke. Enough said.

7) Not take up Biology/Maths tuition.
Yeah, i'd dropped Addmaths earlier this year. I didn't see any improvement nor any changes after going to tuition. And god, why oh why did i thought Bio tuition was unecessary? Biology marking schemes is a pain in the ass. What the fuck do they want from me?

6) Buying unnecessary things from Popular.
Yes, so me and Faris had (and we still do have) this fetish on entering Popular without leaving empty-handed. Let's see what i bought so far this year from popular. I bought this really one cute bookmark for 6 bucks. 3 packets of 200pieces of sticky notes for 5 bucks each. I've bought a packet of erasers, there's 4 of them in it for i think 4 bucks. I've bought this really one nice sticky mark that you can put at the edges of books, i have no idea what the call it, i think it's around 6-7bucks. I've bought tons of useless correction tape. Oh and the last time i went there i was this really nice One Piece mug, maybe i should go get one. hoho (shoots self)

5) Yes here comes the top 5. Pushed most of my friends away to concentrate on studies.
This was a bad idea. I miss my friends. I need them. But i knew i couldn't balance them both this year. So i had to be selfish and cast them aside for a while. I truly am sorry, guys.

4) Not going to Baskie's classes.
His classes are on Sundays this year. So i became fucking lazy to go. I missed a lot of my form 5 stuff. You can actually say i have zero knowledge on form 5 chemistry. I can't remember them at all.

3) Drinking too much coffee just now.
I think i drank about 4 or 5 mugs just for today. Now i feel dehydrated.

2) Getting too much of evening sleep this year and last year and last last year.
Oh my god. Now that SPM is just inches away, i felt like i wasted so much time. Plus, all those hours sleeping, i could have done something else better with it. It made me soft, man, soft. I can't even handle two rounds around Padang Perdana, what the hell.

1) And drumrolls please, the top on my list is: Skipping school this year.
Before the timetable changed, i used to skip well let's see.. Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursday. And oh, ocassionally on Fridays too. So yes, to sum it up, i kinda only go to school on Mondays this year, skipping most of my Chemistry and Biology classes. No wonder. i shall not complain further on how i suck so much in these two science subjects. I've skipped about 67 days this year i think.

So that's about it.
How life has to move one. I should go continue reading Chemistry for tomorrow.
I'll do my best!

Sheeps.

2011-09-19T09:02:00.000-07:00

I CAN'T SLEEP.
I HAVE ADDMATHS PAPER TOMORROW.
I CAN'T READ.
MY EYES AND HEAD HURT REALLY BAD.
I CAN'T STUDY THIS WAY.

I MIGHT BE HAVING DENGUE SYMPTOMS.
I ALMOST DID VOMIT JUST NOW, BUT I DIDN'T.

AND I CAN'T SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP.
OH MY GOD.

Drawing is the only thing i can think of to make me feel better now.
Here's a one hour sketch of Ulquiorra Schiffer from Bleach.

p.s: i have no idea why blogger's ruining my drawing.
p.p.s: Reuploaded, but it still looks the same.
p.p.p.s: Fuck you, blogger.
p.p.p.p.s: Too lazy to re(re(re))upload again. Kbai.

Spit-choking three weeks of sleepless hell.

2011-09-14T10:27:00.001-07:00

Yes, i'm now having my SPM Trials.
I practically only have caffeine in my system.
I'm not even going to be surprised is caffeine is in my blood stream (or even in my brain)

I'm reading like one mad person, and nothing is even going in my head.
No, i am not planning to fail any of my papers.
I'm not even planning on getting a B and below, for god's sake!
It's half-past one now, yes in the morning.
I'm not done reading my Pend. Islam yet. And to be dead-on honest, i haven't even started! And even now, my head hurts like crazy. I have no idea what i should do, another mug of coffee? Hell yes.

I've been sleeping at 3AM everyday.
And it's not even the end of the first week yet! it has only been three days!
The only time i get my sleep is the 20 or 10 minutes after i'm done with the paper, I don't even bother to check my answers anymore. and even that, teachers would go around knocking on your tables if your asleep. WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK? NO SERIOUSLY, CAN'T YOU FUCKING GET IT THAT WE JUST NEED SOME FUCKIN' SLEEP? HONESTLY, SHEESH.

Well i'm off to contaminate my system with more coffee.
Wish me luck and do pray for me!
I'll do my best!

Ding dong bells.

2011-08-28T21:20:00.000-07:00

Am i the only one in this world who hates raya?

Stressed?

2011-08-23T06:07:00.000-07:00

No, it's not what you think the title states.
So i've been having doubts about this stress problem.
During English period just now, we had to summarised a text and yes, you've guessed it- It's was a text on "Teenagers and stress" or something like that.

The text said- well it's not exactly what the text really said, i didn't copy down the exact sentence, but it's something like this-,

Teenagers have to cope with stress from school (teachers and friends) and also from home (parents and siblings).

True that, true that.
But have you ever wonder. maybe we are never put directly under any circumstances that would lead us to this situation that we call... stress?
Have you ever wondered that maybe, we people- well to be a bit more specific, us students- aren't stressed at all?
That we actually became so adapted to any situations that would cause us... stress?
That maybe we are actually UNDER STRESSED?

Instead what we think we're dealing with is actually the whole opposite thing?

STRESSED VS. UNDER STRESSED.

Maybe all the pressure that we face, all the high hopes and expectations thrown at us, all the due dates and assignments piled up over our backs, all the responsibilities burdened on on our shoulders had changed mankind?

Maybe us humans have evolved to become unaffected by all these unnecessary emotions that caused us to evolve again to become the generation who couldn't care less?

Think about it, dealing with the same shit over and over again, every single tedious day, in every moment of your half-wasted youth. You couldn't care less about it anymore. You don't even know what you're doing.

Maybe we are under stressed after all? Maybe we couldn't bother about anything else in our shitty lives that we give up doing everything else and actually DO NOTHING about it. Comforting ourselves with the thoughts of "Oh, someone else would solve this problem."

I mean honestly, if we are not under stressed, why are we so addicted to social webs like Twitter and Facebook? Why do we go hang out away from home for one whole day? Why aren't we ever tired talking on the phone even when our ears are like half-roasted from all the radiation? IF WE'RE NOT UNDER STRESSED, WHY THE HELL AM I WRITING THIS INSTEAD OF DOING SOMETHING 'PRODUCTIVE'?

My point is, The system should change, we need a change. This whole stress issue is leading us into lazy-assed human beings that couldn't care less about anything else other than themselves? Maybe yes, maybe not.

Maybe I'M the one that's just STRESSED?

Null.

2011-08-05T09:47:00.000-07:00

Harap Maaf,
Tiada Inspirasi.

Pencil hearts.

2011-07-30T06:24:00.000-07:00

Well hello hello there reader(s).
Psh, as if i've got lots.
Ah yes, I am back updating for once.
It's been a while, it's been a while.

A few days ago, St. George had lost one of it's precious students.
Only a few days ago, we had lost someone very dearly to us.
Al-Fatihah, Amirah Binti Fadzil.
You are beautiful, intelligent, and talented.
Your lost is deeply felt by all of us,
thank you for opening our eyes, and thank you for changing my life.
Moga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas roh sahabatku yang tersayang ini.

Okay, so back to what i really wanted to write about,
You know since in form 4, every single time someone sees any of my scribbles/sketches/drawings they would bug me and bombard me with questions like;

"Izati, why aren't you in Arts stream?"
"You should really really take arts, you know."
"Why won't you take Arts?"
"You are wasting your priceless talent, Izati!"
"Wow, are you in Arts stream? No? WTF, why no?"

Honestly, it's sooooooo tiring listening to it.
I would usually ignore them and walk away or just smile at them,
but now maybe i should really answer these questions.

Well, here are my reasons why I am not in Science-Arts stream or Econ-Arts stream:

1) In 2010, I wanted to become a Lawyer.
So yeah, when we had to choose a stream, i first took accounts thinking that i did not want to waste my 3 years learning perdagangan, though i did consider Arts. When i lost interest in accounts two days after Form 4 classes started, i knew i had to switch streams. So the option was- EST, English Literature, Pure science, and of course Arts. I of course didn't see how Arts would be useful for me in the future, went for something to do with language since i wanted to do Law, and pushed Arts aside. I guess I was wrong, I now want to do Architecture.

2) Due dates.
Arts students and their assignments. I remembered seeing my senior, Ashley, stressing about her Art assignment like for half of the year when i was in Form 3. Since then, i became a bit more reluctant to jump on board. I of course being a very punctual person (not), can never ever take Arts in school this way.

3) The Teacher.
Chan Bee Chin. She don't- no, let me correct that, she never does- get my perspective of art. Enough said.

4) Random moodswings.
I scribble and ruin my drawings when i don't feel like drawing anymore. Like that one time in form 3, we had to draw a portrait of someone. And i chose Brandon Urie, lead singer of Panic! At The Disco. I drew a moustache, coloured his nostrils and sclera really black, and made his hair looked like Marilyn Monroe's just because i felt like it. Obviously i ended up not passing up the assignment. (This is another reason that is connected to point 2.) And Chan Bee Chin had to chase me for it, since she had to give marks for it. I ended up drawing Justin Timberlake, which i found his face in some magazine at Laman Ilmu and drew it on the spot to pass up. His nose was crooked.

5) My obsessions for other things.
I noticed this one thing about myself when I'm drawing or doing Arts. When i have an obsession on something, i tend to ONLY draw it and nothing else. Like that moment when i was really really really obsessed about P!ATD (Ryan Ross, the guitarist, to be exact) in 2008 and 2009. We were given an assignment where we had to do some patterns for this Harmoni shiz. Then i ended up drawing Ryan Ross, using random patterns. It failed, obviously. And Cikgu Maziani didn't like it and made me re-do it. So i did some colourful shiz and drew Ryan at the bottom-left corner. I've did a Carpool Poster of band members that i liked- I remember there was Panic!, Fall Out Boy, Greenday, Paramore, Gabe Saporta from Cobra Starship, My Chemical Romance and a few more people- all sitting on one car. I actually won Kepujian for it. And i bet if i was in Arts stream now, all my drawings are probably Bleach characters, go figure.

6) I never listen to the Arts teacher.
Stubborn i shall say. I would never change my work if the teacher advices me to add on or edit something. As long as i am happy with it, i leave it that way. If the teacher asks me to add on a flower, i'll draw a butterfly. If she asks me to put a butterfly at the corner, i'll draw a dragon. And this usually cause me to lose a serious amount of marks. So i didn't want to risk my SPM year for things like this.

7) I hate watercolours.
In exams for the whole three years, I only used colour pencils. I remembered using poster colour only once or twice. I like penciled arts more than painted art. In Form 3, Chan Bee Chin didn't like me using pencil colour and gave me a 10 over 20 marks for my drawing. And i got really pissed.

8) Drafts and output produced.
My drafts and my artworks, are like two different things. Like the sun and the earth. I draft it this way, but what i would draw would come out very very very differently. Not really helpful in exams, i tell you that.

9) Colours.
I despise mt works coloured, i like it monochrome. Yes, again, the teachers aren't very happy with that. Maziani once called me "Emo" for it, and Chan Bee Chin once called me "Dull" because i passed up a black and white painting.

10) My artworks itself.
Most of them aren't appropriate, to school that is. I drew a person in a possessed-like pose, screaming in anger. It was for the experiment on how to use different technique of painting, and it was dry on wet. I actually painted it red with a touch of black, to symbolize angst and sadness. Obviously teachers hated it. And I've been wondering ever since then, don't they have ANY emotions at all? School's seriously limiting your expressions man! All you can draw is butterflies and flowers and happy faces. Where's the reality, bitches?

15 July.

2011-07-14T22:58:00.000-07:00

Due to this one compulsion, I JUST HAD TO DO THIS.
Happy Birthday.

Nyom.

2011-07-11T06:57:00.000-07:00

Watching Chef Wan makin Macaroons on tele.

How i wish my mom baked. Sigh.

Issues.

2011-07-02T21:18:00.000-07:00

I miss my bed, but i miss her as much.

Hito.

2011-06-28T10:10:00.000-07:00

And when was the last time i saw this opening?

Mnyehh.

2011-06-27T08:19:00.000-07:00

Don't feel like doing anything.
I can't really decide if im:
a) way too stressed that i don't even care about doing anything.
b) understressed and don't have a clue what to do.
c) such a bitch that doesn't give a flying fuck about my own future?
d) on the verge of losing my grip because i can't seem to cope with hellish reality.

School's been a growing pain. (please ignore the fact that i actually skipped school today because i'm starting to give up on it.) As if it's a tumor growing somewhere inside my mind.

You wake up in the morning wondering if today would be any better than yesterday.

Keep on wondering when will your days get better, no matter how hard you try your best, life wont play along with you.

But still you walk in the school gate, and you will be practically breathing in trouble.

"Drama doesn't follow me, it rides on my back."

Well said. I don't know about you, but teachers have been so cold lately. Yes, SPM is near, i am fully aware of it. (how can i not be, i am reminded about it every second in my life no matter anywhere i go) They give you a straight face, and points out on your every single flaw. They give you tons of responsibilities, expecting that it'll turn you into perfection.

Homeworks. Please. Explain.
How can you 101% guarantee that if i actually finish all of them and i'll ace all my examination like skipping through a field of bright-pink flowers?
Classes. Please. Tell me.
How can you people fucken promise me that if i actually go to school i can score my papers like as if its ABC?

I don't know about you.
But im fuckn giving up on school.
I haven't seen the results of what they did.

Your barks are way too load compared to your bites,
Do something about it, St. George.

G-Men.

2011-06-04T06:26:00.000-07:00

I HAVE WATCHED. :D

Kinda gay.
Not a big fan of the X-Men.
6/10, the beginning was a drag.

another update.

2011-06-03T05:55:00.000-07:00

Yeah chillin at Tari Cafe now.
told ya i wanted to get some fresh air.

oh i heard that Penang got bronze for Juno Kata. Congrats.

treat your athletes better next time, then maybe you'll get gold. Bastards.

Take it up a notch.

2011-06-03T04:22:00.000-07:00

No matter how you look at it, it's still the same horrifying fact.
This is my last Mid Year holidays?
Hell, sure i'll get my semester break and such when i'm in college/uni.
No really, 5 more months? and it'll be an all out war.
Am i even ready?
This is like facing a life and death situation, man its a pain in the neck.

Mid year examination marks wasn't something to be proud of.
It was horrible, and i thought i did well.

I have a week of holidays left.
Holidays that i used to spend at home chilling,
just swimming through piles of books that i didn't really need to read on,
just digging in a few chapters of revisions,
This holidays, it seems more or less like me burning at home,
sweating off every energy left here,
rather than just swimming through books, i'm practically drowning.
rather than just digging in, homeworks are like burying me alive.

I wonder going through this hols alive would be as easy.
Hell yes, this is a life and death situation,
I'm out, i need some fresh air.
being locked in this small stuffy room can make me go insane.

Jaanei.

MacBook Air.

2011-05-21T23:56:00.000-07:00

Abah, adik nak. xD

Infected.

2011-05-16T08:12:00.000-07:00

Papi treats me as if i'm 7.
It bothers me, really.
I'm 17 dad.
17.

No, i'm pretty sure of my own decisions.
Yes, i am a teenager.
Yes, please let me learn from my own mistakes.

Yes, i am not hungry when i say i am not hungry.
No, i don't want McDonalds.
No, i am not 4 years old anymore.

Yes, i say what i mean to say.
Yes, i am pretty sure of myself.
No, you don't have to make me repeat myself.

No, i don't need much attention anymore.
Yes, let me grow up without having to depend much on you.
Yes, i don't want you to bug me all the time.

Yes, i don't like it when you bother me.
No, it doesn't mean i hate you.
Yes, i love you.

Yes, i want you to understand.
Yes, i am growing up.
Yes, i am still your daughter.
Please, understand.

Strawberry♥

2011-05-15T06:47:00.000-07:00

Yes, so I am A Bleach fan now.
Kill me.

Set back.

2011-04-28T09:57:00.000-07:00

Alright.
Yes, hi. It's been a while haven't it?

Well, i don't have much to say.
It's just that, it's 200 days to what i wasted five years in school studying for.
Those three damned letters that opens up to your future.
Yes, 200 days to SPM.
Yes, i am counting.

So yeah, why the heck am i updating?
Well. Come to think of it, how come haven't i been serious about this before?
Three years of preparation. Three years.
I will not lose that much time to just a few weeks of exams.
I will not put my future on the line.

Three more exams,
Mid-year, Percubaan JPN, Percubaan Sek.
And then it's the big one.

For some of us, this would probably be our last mid-year in school.
Why aren't we taking this seriously?
Why aren't i taking THIS seriously?
I'm going on life in full throttle now.
There's no room for a cruise now.
No room for accidents.

200 days.
Hear me out, i won't waste this time.
Just watch me.

Phoawrrr;

2011-04-18T06:42:00.000-07:00

When was the last time i wrote?

Well, life's been the same old record.

Nothing interesting.

Sukantara tomorrow,
Rock Your Way on saturday.

Oh did i tell you i'm in Fry cheer? haha.

Yes, what the hell.
Flyer.

Hold your head high heavy heart.

2011-03-30T03:19:00.000-07:00

It's all fucked.
You weren't there, how would you know.
I don't mind, blame it all on me.
I don't mind, this isn't the first time.

Try thinking of what you'd did before,
before you think you're pretty much betrayed.

Friends?
Maybe now you'll learn what it means.

SINGGGG.

2011-03-21T06:16:00.000-07:00

YES, WHAT RYAN ROSS SAID ♥

I have watched, haha di haha.

2011-03-15T04:01:00.000-07:00

8 out of 10. Thumbs up, good job KRU.
Well, maybe it's because I'm not such a big fan of fighting scenes.
But loved the storyline, tho. And heyhey, aku rasa tercabar ni sebab ada banyak peribahasa yang aku tak faham dalam cerita ni, haha.

Go watch it if you haven't. Highly recommended. The best M'sian movie so far.

"I hope to hell this is the last time."

2011-03-12T05:43:00.000-08:00

Ugh i know, I'm late.
I've pledged that i won't blog on my exam week remember. It's over now though.

Recently the whole world was struck by a horrifying news.
An 8.9 Richter earthquake in one of the world's most developed country.

That particular 8.9 Richter earthquake in Japan had taken down plenty of lives by now. Hundreds- No, THOUSANDS of people have lost a member of their family- a father, a mother, a child, a sister, a brother. THOUSANDS have lost their loved ones in a blink of an eye. THOUSANDS have lost someone significant- someone who was apart and important in their life not long before all this catastrophe happened.

Plenty of people would have to deal with the pain, the sadness, this heart-wrenching depression that this shocking tragedy brought along with it. Ya Allah, give them strength to got through this agony, give the courage to do so.

Send out your prayers, people.
PRAYERS FOR PACIFIC♥
May all of us be safe.

Japan, hang in there.

Enter, Lucius.

2011-02-25T06:15:00.000-08:00

So yeah, just received my Scholastic Books today.
Indulging Shakespeare's Julius Caesar.
Thought i should be more exposed to this kind of English.

Oh, I'll be on HAITUS from this week onwards,
until my first term exams is done, that is.
Need to be doing some serious workout.

&& I'll be shoe-painting again than.
Anyone with size seven feet, i have shoes? (;

Ngeh.

2011-02-17T22:18:00.000-08:00

Make me run 5 rounds around Padang Polo, i would.
Make me run up and down Penang Street, i would.
Make me hike up and down Bukit Bendera, i would.
Make me swim 4 rounds in PISA, I would.
Make me climb up all the stairs in KOMTAR, i would.

But make me go up 4 flights of stairs leading to GTC,
That's something i would contemplate on.
Here we go again.

WOOHOOO.

2011-02-12T20:26:00.001-08:00

The news last night said that Shisha is 400 times worst than smoking.
YES, DIE BASTARDS DIEEEEE. >:D
muahahahahha.

ZOMGDAITOFTFWYES.

2011-02-10T07:17:00.000-08:00

I DEMAND MORE KIRISHIMA ACTION IN CZ3.
HELL YEAAAAAH!

Because he is just way to Gaya too handle.
Kan? Kan? *winkswinks*

Shame shame, shame on you.

2011-02-10T07:12:00.000-08:00

I've moved.

To Shitsville.

like 5 seconds ago.

Really, honestly i live in Shitsville now.
D:

Oh Little Linda,

2011-02-07T06:50:00.000-08:00

I just don't feel like doing anything really.
I don't know why.

Taking control of life is tiring,
It won't be any easier from now on you know.
I'm drained,
Out of ideas, out of inspiration,
out of goals to live for.

Where am i heading,
I'm drifting away in this sea of life,
Without a boat, without a peddle,
Limbs too tired, swimming against the current,
It's either you let yourself drown, giving up,
or hope you'll just land on a deserted island somewhere.

Am I at my limits?
I've got to make time to sort the things inside my head,
This isn't working isn't it?
I feel a song coming.

Bertekad.

2011-02-05T22:14:00.000-08:00

YES, AGREED.
I'm all in finishing the assigments that would be added to my examination marks today.
Let's get it done now.

May i?

2011-02-02T06:26:00.000-08:00

I feel defeated, looking for the truth.
The world we live in, it seems that the truth themselves are made out of lies.
I mean, come on. It's everywhere.

It's even in the food that we eat.
Animal fats injected in their synthetic casing, we call them sausages.
Artificial cheese that makes your nose go runny.
Strawberry flavoured fruit pieces in a strawberry flavoured granola bar.
I mean, What The Heck?
Cranberries posing as strawberries? That's just crossing the line.
I mean, why call it Strawberry flavoured when you use cranberries?
Why not just use Cranberries flavoured instead?

WHY OH WHY OH WHY?

Take THAAAAAAT.

2011-02-02T03:43:00.000-08:00

BAHAHAHA,

I AM DONE WITH MY CHEMISTRY HOMEWORK.

One down, 9 more subjects to go.
Woo~

Counting Sheeps.

2011-02-01T01:51:00.000-08:00

I can't sleep, and am on the verge of going mad.
been rolling on the bed for hours now, and i still can't sleep.
I have no idea what to do, and i don't think watching a movie/drama is proper at this time of hour. It's 2.39am for god's sake.
I'll just update the playlist in my phone and do some exercises i guess.
Sit ups, push ups, squats = tired.
Tired = sleep well.

I might fuse in some homeworks in between that just to save my limited time. It's a good thing i can't sleep, maybe i'll get to finish at least one or two of my homework. And that reminds me, i need to find my Rumusan book, i think it's in school, dammit. If it's not, then i'll need to start a new book.

Raja OHHHH RAJA.

2011-01-30T18:36:00.000-08:00

Wahai sahabat,
Gila rajin kau update blog, haha.
And no problemo lah, ciplak sikit-sikit ja,
baru geng.
LOL WTF am i saying?
And woot~ i come in first on the link list. Terima kasih Malaysia!

Oh well, happy blogging.
Like i told you, i wanted to post something, but i don't really know what to write about, so yeah, i'll write this then. Baha.

To an end.

2011-01-30T07:34:00.000-08:00

Another lost.
But it's okay, as long as you're happy.
Right?

I wonder how long would this same old song play over and over again.
Getting beat up from the same beat.
It's becoming tediously dull.
I need a change, some fresh air, perhaps?
This small cozy room suddenly feels so suffocating.
I can't be this sensitive, cant i?
It's unnecessary. It's impossible.

Hold your head high, heavy heart.
This is going to be a tough ride.

KILL.

2011-01-23T07:47:00.000-08:00

I don't see how burdening your students with truck loads of homeworks would help them in their studies. Help them in getting good results, my point is. How the hell do they expect us to go for an A+ for each subject if we don't even have time for revisions, if we don't even have time to give ourselves a break? to rest for at least 2 hours. No, we can't. We slack off a bit, and we'll be left behind- way-hey far behind. Honestly speaking, i've never appreciated my free time this much before. That small period of time somewhere between Friday night to Saturday morning, where i would be all worn out and tired, that's the only time that i can make room for myself. Saturday would be filled with homeworks and just homeworks. Sunday i'll be prolly waking up in the afternoon and head of to tuition in the evening and be finishing last minute homeworks after tuition. Hell wtf is this? Oh and for your info, i AM doing my homework now, while typing this thing. Told you i've no time for myself. The world should give students a break, i'm not complaining about this just because im a student. But honestly, do you think over-stressing at this young age would be any good for OUR future? Dammit, no brains educators.

Pretending I'm not.

2011-01-23T07:08:00.000-08:00

HOLLLLLLLLLYMOLLYYY,
It's 11.08pm and i've just finished my shower a few minutes ago.
I've a few homeworks that are due tomorrow that i'm not done with and i've a test tomorrow too. ZOMGBBQSAUCESEDAP.
I swear i wont hesitate to shoot myself if i spent my next Saturday finishing one whole episode of J Drama. I'm done watching Tumbling anyways, haha. Three thumbs up (grabs random person's hand to make it three), who knew most of the actors could do backflips and stunts, impressive.

Oh patience temptest, patience.

I'll have sometime for myself sooner or later.
Though the temptation of watching another series is really high.
I might just feed my addiction by listening to soundtracks, darn.

Anyways, my Additional Maths homework is awaiting.
I shall go and finish these pain in the ass work now.
Tatatatata.

Moon chasing; day 3.

2011-01-20T07:10:00.000-08:00

So yes, this is the third day i've been taking pictures of the full moon,
honestly, the view is EPIC. So, I didn't actually bring Shotgun out yesterday, but i got to take the picture from the window in my house. Living on the 12th floor, you can always see what's going on, really. So tonight, wen't to Tg. Bungah for Chicken Chop and went to Straits Quay on the way home.

So here's one of my favourite shots;

Oh, and did you know? Straits Quay has Subway now!

YES!

Ne?

2011-01-19T02:22:00.000-08:00

Yes, i just got back from Judo.
And i sat in my room without turning on the fan and complained that it was hot.

It still is hot.

So anyways, forget that.
Happy Advanced Thaipusam for those who's celebrating,
I don't think I'll be blogging tomorrow,
Since I've made myself a to-do list to make use to the one-day holiday.
And no, Japanese Dramas aren't included.
Though i was thinking of re-watching Crows Zero as a reward after I'm done with my revisions and homeworks.

Oh and i might need to add another thing on my to-do list,
Watch Juno Kata, AGAIN AND AGAIN.

White on black.

2011-01-16T05:42:00.001-08:00

Ma & Pa.

I guess the view would never change between them both, eh?

Headfirst slide into Cooperstown.

2011-01-14T23:34:00.000-08:00

I have homeworks that i don't bother to finish. :D
yay.

p.s: too lazy to be updating blog, ha.

I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon.

2011-01-10T06:07:00.000-08:00

Did i fell asleep or did i actually passed out just now?
Honestly, i can't tell.

I actually woke up sitting- gasping, and breathing heavily. My vision swam. What happened? What time is it? How long was I out? I checked my room, it was already dark. How long had i been asleep?

Hell, my head hurts. I tried to stood up, and that wasn't such a good idea. The world began spinning. When was the last time i had headaches like this? Never, i had never. I grabbed the chair and tried to balance myself. God, what is happening? My eyes hurt, my body ached. I sat on the edge on my bed, trying to wake myself up. I rubbed my eyes using my hands as an attempt to open them. It did worked, but it took a few moments for me to adjust my sight. Even in the faint evening light coming through my bedroom window, i felt like the light was blinding.

Seriously, what the fuck is happening? Am i fucking turning into some freak vampire or something? I snorted at that thought and gave myself a sardonic smile- eyes closed. Hell, i should've wore my glasses since the first time the doctor told me to do so. I guess my eyesight is becoming worst now since i've been straining them. I am exhausted. School haven't been helping much, and i knew i haven't been sleeping well and doing too much reading.

The pressure is on. This is only the beginning, i can't lose now. I will never let failure look down and laugh at me ever again- never again. I'll do whatever it takes, already. Even if that means i have to wake up everyday feeling shitty like this.

If you want to play this, I'll play. You just wait and see.

SQUEAAAAAAAAAALS.

2011-01-09T07:12:00.000-08:00

Yes, you can bloody call me spoiled.
Papie & Mama bought me a friggin' camera now.

I'm naming him Shotgun.

Yosh.

2011-01-09T06:54:00.000-08:00

Alright, alright, i'll update, already. (;
So i am supposedly to write an essay on "A person who has a great passion for living" since last week, and what comes to my mind on that topic? Obviously nothing. Re-read the sentence and crap like Nirvana and Crows Zero would come to my mind.

And so i was in a delimma, so i kept myself busy by finishing my other homeworks first, buying time so that i can think who i would write on. While doing Addmaths, i was listening to 3OH!3's - Don't Trust Me. And so that it dawns in. No, not 3OH!3, obviously Daria wouldn't even heard of them.

"Shush girl, shut your lips,
Do the Helen Keller, and talk with your hips."

And so right after I was done with my Addmaths, I took out Papie's laptop and began Youtube-ing. And yes, i found it!

I've even read a few articles on her and made some short notes. I've watched this version a few times already. So if i don't get a bloody A+ for this essay, I would be fucken pissed off at Daria because I've wasted my time and i am not done with my BM essay yet. Oh well, enjoy the movie. I find this version is better than the one that shown on Disney. But heck, Helen Keller rocks.

Tut turutut tut tut.

2011-01-02T00:11:00.000-08:00

I'm almost done with Aiz's shoes.
Was listening to too much Avenged Sevenfold- Bat Country.
I'll update this post tonight. (:

**Updated**

okay, i'm seriously almost done with the shoes. There's a teeny-weeny part that i'm not done with yet. So i'll post the damn picture up for you guys when i'm done. Sorry sorry.

***To Be Continued in Another Post***

Mad as a Cow.

2011-01-01T17:14:00.000-08:00

IN NEED TO PLAY HARVEST MOON.

I wanna have cows and sheeps and chickens and plant stupid crops and harvest them and go fishing and ride on my horse that i would name Hors and name my dog Toto and sell crops and get money and waste my time.

Eh?

2010-12-31T08:57:00.000-08:00

So i was waiting for the countdown listening to songs,
my playlist was on shuffle,
and guess what's the first song i listened to in 2011?
at 12 o'clock sharp Blink 182 - Dammit played.
I sense bad karma. (;

But then again, i can never trust my senses, ha.
Happy New Year, fellow bloggers.

Revolve.

2010-12-31T05:15:00.000-08:00

So maybe i'll just write one last post for this year.
Nope, am not celebrating. Though i swear i've been through a great year. Seriously, time just fuckin' storms by so fast when you're not paying attention- when you're having fun. I swear i still remember what i posted last year for New Years, i was at Wahida's. This year, I'm staying home i guess. I'll just dance to Panic At The Disco or something.

Sure i'll like to tell everyone that they are awesome and all, but i think they know that much already. They pretty much know i love them to bits. Yes, they know that. Thanks everyone.

Malice in Wonderland.

2010-12-29T23:30:00.000-08:00

No really, this is just great.
I have school tomorrow, and it's supposedly a public holiday.
Who the heck is the school to make such superior decision?
Damnit.

Truth or Dare.

2010-12-23T11:30:00.000-08:00

I woke up at 3am for chocolate muffins.
well, i was hungry, don't blame me. I do that all the time.

Gift?

2010-12-13T03:37:00.001-08:00

They don't know how it feels don't they?
Sakit tau tak?

eerie.

2010-12-11T22:02:00.000-08:00

I woke up from my not-sleep-i-call-it-6-hours-nap-idiot feeling weird.
Dammit, i have no idea what's happening,
I woke up telling myself, your life needs some adjustment to it,
Well there ARE definately things that are wrong about my life and i at this point,

No really, i insist i shall list it down:

1) I've been sleeping at 2am everyday, waking up the next hour wondering would i wake up the next hour wondering the same thing.

2) I've watched 3 Japanese drama series which is UNFORGIVABLE.

3) I know what idiot is in Japanese, which is DOUBLE UNFORGIVABLE.

4) I hate taking showers nowadays.

5) Been dreaming way too much.

6) I am wasting my time over a boy that i love and doesn't even exist.

7) I've just stated number 6, dammit. Don't even ask what the f do i mean by it.

8) Been doing to much unecessary thinking.

9) I've just screamed at myself that i've finished the last bottle of Vitagen.

10) Haven't been studying for futures, but been wasting time thinking instead of working on it.

11) Losing track of time. The last date on my time-bomb calender was 23rd November. Hell, it's the 12th od December now.

12) I'm half-obsessed about listing.

13) The last thing i listed down were names of my childhood friends, and how happy they are now.

14) I'm the only person that i've listed as 'fucked up' in that list.

15) I fucken miss my friends.

16) Come to think of it, do i even have one? Damn.

17) I don't know what i want to do about the future. and i don't even think i want to go to the future.

18) I'm scared to start again.

19) I think my social life had just extinct.

20) The fact that I'm writting this down. That is something definately WRONG about me.

Help.

Danial Hasfriz,

2010-12-07T00:00:00.000-08:00

Have fun, and BEHAVE. You're 16 now, cendawan. (:

The Holidays' to-dos,

2010-12-05T03:39:00.000-08:00

TO-DO(s):

1) READ.
i. Physics, Light and Chapter 1, Waves.
ii. Biology, Chapter 8 and 9. and Chapter 1 form 5.
iii. Chemistry, Acid and Base and Salt and whatever necessary.
iv. Sejarah, form 5.
v. Azfa Hanani and Harga Remaja's cerpen and prosa traditional.
vi. Kembara Amira and the other books.

2) REVISE.
i. Sejarah form 4, ALL OF IT.
ii. Physics, Laws & Formulas.
iii. Chemistry, whatever necessary.
iv. ADDMATHS, EVERYTHING.
v. Math, all of it.
vi. Pendidikan Islam, sirah, akidah, al-quran, hadis, ALL.
vii. Judo techniques.

3) START GOING JOGGING.
i. Botanical park.
ii. By the beach.

4) Buy more fabric paint.
i. Red
ii. Purple
iii. Pink
iv. Blue

5) LESS SLEEP, MORE TIME ON BOOKS.

6) Short notes on next years' chapters.

7) Clean desk, and bookshelf. Empty them and get ready for next year.

8) Make sure room is neat all the time.

9) Save money.

10) Start a new blog for HEAT, my shoes project.
i. Get admin.
ii. Get runner.
iii. Get project manager.

11) Start painting some shoes for Riotous project in January 2011.

12) ACTUALLY FOLLOW THESE RULES. TALK AIN'T CHEAP. TALK TAKES TIME, TIME IS MONEY. MONEY IS GOOD.

NOT TO-DO(s):

1) Wake up at 1pm every ~~morning~~ day.

2) FACEBOOK, tee hee. Only go on Facebook after studying in the morning. 12am, is counted morning, izati.

3) Less TV. TV's only for movies.

4) Less time outside doing nothing, only go Queensbay/Gurney to buy fabric paint and shoes and watch movies.

5) Re-reading Fight Club, Rant, Ordinary Ghost. Finish them, and get started with school books.

6) Evening naps, no more of these.

Tonight.

2010-11-27T05:11:00.000-08:00

Feel very anti-social right now.
Going on a hunger strike- until mom and dad are asleep atleast.
Being very unreasonable nowadays, something's not right in the near future.
Still can't tell what though.

Love like WOES.

2010-11-26T07:56:00.000-08:00

This sore throat i'm having. It's painful.

But maybe it isn't as painful as the hole in my heart.

Something's missing, and i'm lying to myself.

Hell, i'm being such an emo.

SNAP OUT OF IT ALREADY. :/

HO YEAH.

2010-11-24T09:33:00.000-08:00

I HAVE BOUGHT FIGHT CLUB!

AND NOW IT'S CUE FOR YOU TO SCREAAAAAAM! YES.

Yes, I was wrong.

2010-11-22T10:17:00.000-08:00

Can't sleep tonight.
I just can't, two nights straight, dreams haven't been so welcoming.
Things i know i will never be able to share, they kill.
I haven't been so down, for such a long time.
It's half a year, i missed my past.
The future seems promising, but my brand new past keeps pulling me back.
I keep holding back, how can we move ahead in this backward motion?
Fighting agaisnt the current isn't as easy as it always had be,
i had friends on lifeboats who'd kept me up, not letting me drown in life's cold unfair tricks.
Now without them, keeping afloat is like running backwards in a race,

At this rate, i'll never get to the future.

I'm packing, i'm leaving, i need too.
I have to move on,
The future is promising, my past had betrayed, the present's full of doubt,
I am moving on,
I'm not ready, but heck, i have to.
The past had rejected me, refused to accept.
I am the unwelcomed nightmare that i keep on getting.
That same old nightmare i keep getting half a year ago.

Trials.

2010-11-22T09:29:00.000-08:00

I have been abandoning my blog.
i must be punished. (:

Screw up.

2010-10-29T07:14:00.000-07:00

If avoiding you is the only option, than someone please kill me.
You have no idea how much i still care about you.

you never did anything wrong,
No you never did,
But why out of the blue you started avoiding me?
I'm the one who's supposed to be apoligizing should i?
Well, i did. And i'm going to again, Im sorry Qamari Zubaidi.

Oh darn,

2010-10-24T02:21:00.000-07:00

Dreamt of Bulan in my evening nap,

Didn't think I'll still miss him this much? :/

Today.

2010-10-23T21:42:00.000-07:00

You know, i could write fiction out of my story.
Everything, from the people i know, to the things that happened, to the stories told, to my existence.

They seem to be stranger than fiction.
From home, to school, to the places i went, the places i fell in love with.
Waking up every morning thinking if what happened wre real.
Praying all bad things were only nightmares,
And all the good things were dreams people would never want to kiss goodnight.

Maybe we were all created to not exist,
We have to live to make our existence pretty much known.

Hell, maybe i wasn't even supposed to live?

2010-10-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

If i died, i'll bet you a fifty squids that no one would care?

Fend me out.

2010-10-15T20:05:00.000-07:00

People just don't appriciate anymore don't they?

One day they'll say they love you,
Then another day, they'll say they don't.

One day they'll send you poems,
They'll say they need you,
The other, they'll say they lied,
they'll say you mean nothing.

One day they'll kiss you goodnight,
The other day, they'll only be your nightmares.

You're just the same,
You brought rain with you,
you drowned me with hopes,
you left me without air to breathe.

I didn't want anything more,
I've just wanted someone i could trust,
I thought you we're one of them,
I've only wanted a friend.

I'm sick of being cheap,
Cheated and abused,
I'm sick of losing sleep,
Thinking about you.

You can break me,
I just won't let you do the same to anyone else.

Take back.

2010-08-14T02:34:00.000-07:00

Sins. Sometimes you'll give ito these temptations. Sometimes you just don't listen to yourselves. Shut down your senses and do things you know you shouldn't do. That moment, you'll feel adrenaline rushing through your viens, filling you with pleasure and guilt at the same time.

I'm a teenager that is fueled by teenange angst. Go figure.
All my fury were balled up in my fist. As if violence would solve everything. As if violence would solve anything. I wasn't raised up like this, thoughts reminded me. I was never raised by malice or by violence. Red is my new colour. Black is what i wear. Back to i wear a black shirt because i ave a black soul. Tengo la camisa negra. Bastards. You'll never understand.

School are for retards.
Then again, even retards are way smarter that they don't even go to school. Education ruined us all.

I took a hit. What ran in my veins now was just plain hard anger.
I was driven by hartred.

You know they say people come and go? They just don't. They cling on your backs, and give you looks as if you have something to do with them. As if you murdered their lives. And all of this started with only one person. Someone that i would name a tumor after. Someone i love so much, that i would aim a gun at his balls.

I would run away from school, you know. But one fact changes everything. I wasn't raised that way. I wasn't raised to run away from all my problems. Problems that came from fucked up people with their fucked up issues. As if i don't have my own life to deal with.

I took another hit. As if i hadn't have enough to deal with. Another hit would leave bruises on my fist. I don't want to die without any scars though.

Fucked up people, those who are aware that they are vulnerable to truth. Knowing about thus fact, they try to get people on their side. These people, need support. Then again, these people needs to go see a councelor and stop bugging my life.

Another hit. Blood. Crimson red droplet everywhere. This has to stop, it's going to far.
I can't keep killing everyone's dream, i can't keep burning my own bridges. Wake me up from this nightmare if im not sleeping.

2010-07-03T03:55:00.000-07:00

You know, exams like somewhere around this month.
and we're watching movies in english classes, wtf.
andddd, the new maths teacher BARU nak take over the class.
WTF.
Chemistry dah Chapter 6 but i don't get one shit she teaches.
Physics aku rasa cikgu tak ajar apa-apa lagi since before exams.
Addmaths aku duk ponteng class.

hell yeah.
im dead. cheers. (;

Bingo.

2010-06-24T02:04:00.000-07:00

I think im sick.
The world seem to move in slow motion.
Im drowning over a sea of unfinished homeworks.
and burning from one end of deadlines.
I haven't get enough sleep for these past few days.
My body isn't functioning well.
I can't really pay attention in class.

I've been over-working.
But hell, no one even noticed.
When would people learn how to appreciate?

Masochism is a valuable job skill.

2010-06-13T12:20:00.000-07:00

I was debating with myself whether I should be happy on this day or if it should go the other way round. Honestly, i had this deja vu feeling. The same feeling that i had during New Years. Right at 12 o'clock midnight on 1st January 2010. I felt empty, i felt lost, i felt nothing special.

So really, i'm asking. Should I, or should i not be happy on this day? Most people would say "Yes". I would say these people couldn't care less about anything but themselves. Or it's either they're high on drugs. Could be sugar too. Birthdays are just days where people create in their minds so that they feel significant, so that they would feel important, so that they won't feel left out in this community, so that they could claim the day as "My Day". Of course people would do that, it's just each of us being me, me, me first. It's all mirror, mirror on the wall. It's all the creation of one's self-absorbed mind.

The truth is, everyone is self-absorbed.

Everyone in this world, they couldn't care less about others.

13th June 1994, the world welcomed me,

13th June 2010, 16 years have passed.

What have I done so far?

Awkward how your birthdays always remind you how you haven't achieved something so far. How you haven't rule or change the world. How your your time is shorter by every moment. Time is running out for you to act. I should act now.

To the toilet then.

Takes my pain away.

2010-06-11T06:25:00.000-07:00

So today i had extra tuition.

For Physics, from 10am - 12pm & 3pm-5pm.

Yes, a three hour break.

So we didn't really have our breakfast,

and we were really really hungry.

So we called up 1-300-13-1-300,

Yes, McDonald's.

A woman picked up (Sorry, the conversation was randomly in malay and was on Loudspeaker)

Woman: Hello selamat tengah hari.

Me: Oh er, selamat tengah hari deh.

Woman: Boleh saya tahu nama cik?

Me: Syazana.

Syaz: (at the same time) Izati.

Woman: Er.

Me: *stares at syaz*

Syaz: Okay fine, it's Syazana.

Me: Can we order already?

Woman: *suddenly puts us on hold*

*Comes out some random McD FIFA WC commercial*

Me: Bloody fuck, she didn't just pun us on hold?

Syaz: Tell me about it, fcker gila.

After 20 minutes of waiting, that bloody bitch hang up on us.

Yes, we were pissed so i called PizzaHut,

Because we were seriously hungry,

This abang pizza picks up,

Abang Pizza: Hello, Selamat tengah hari. PizzaHut disini, boleh saya tolong anda.

Me: Errrrr, yeah. Selamat tengah hari?

Abang Pizza: Cik, nama cik ape ye?

Me: Izati, can i order now?

Abang Pizza: Jap ye cik, cik tinggal di mana ye?

Me: *gives address*

Abang Pizza: Ohh, orang penang la ni?

Me: Abang, saya lapaq, cepat sikit.

Abang Pizza: Hahahahahahahhaahaha.

Me: Er, abang, okay ke tak ni?

Abang Pizza: Oh ye ye, Gelugor dekat mana eh? Bukit Mertajam ke?

Me: Gelugor dekat gelugor la.

Abang Pizza: Oh, dekat Bertam tu?

Me: Gelugor dekat gelugor la.

So eventually 10mins after his lame attempt to mengorat, i gave my orders.

In the mean time, we went to the shop to go buy ice cream.

And then the pizza came, we ate.

When we were eating,

Devi was giving sex advice, the boys heard.

and they told Sir Arun.

Hahahahahaha, Mr. Bean condoms.

Haha, i love today.

Thanks Syazana, Anis, Devi and Renuka.

And a lil humor from Sharu too. (;

Hearts you chikas.

Here we go, shawty.

2010-06-10T04:59:00.000-07:00

It's so near, that you can tell nothing else matters.

That you can touch, feel & taste it.

Well, that's what the television says.

FIFA Worldcup is here.

This is the time people.

Boys, hold on to your seats.

Girls, hold on to yourself.

Because this is the time where you have to deal with your boyfriends ramblings on who scored who, and who won over who. This is the moment where they REALLY won't listen to what we are saying and what are we complaining about.

Texts that says;

"I miss you"

it would be,

"Baby, Espana lawan esok."

Texts that says;

"Baby, have you had your dinner?"

they would be,

"Oh, i dekat mamak with my friends tgh tgk Worldcup."

Texts that says;

"B, im sleepy, sing me to sleep."

they're now,

"B, FRANCE SCOREDDDD!"

Texts that says;

"I love you, baby"

it's now,

"OMG, i loved the matched last night, best gile"

No really I am thankful that I do not have a boyf now.

Have fun girls, remember, control yourselves.

Boys will be boys, clueless as ever. (;

Happy Whore-lidays.

2010-06-04T20:49:00.000-07:00

Oh, hello.
It's only the first day of holidays, and i have nothing else better to do.
thank god mom borrowed Uncle Luqman's broadband.
I could at least go online.

Qamari's away to Aussie.
For a holiday.
Yes, for a week.
Yes, kangaroos.
Yes, Koalas.
and Eucalyptus trees of course.

Oh well, have fun Bulan.

Faris is away to France.
Yes, Paris.
Yes, Eiffel tower.
Yes, au revoir.
Yes, Cheese.
and mad shopping marathons of course.

Oh yeesh, have fun Faris.

Joe is away to Pahang.
Yes, Taman Negara.
Yes, school trip.
Yes, Jungle tracking.
and superb boat rides of course.

Okay, fine. Have fun Joey.

Me?
I'm here in penang.
Yes, for both weeks.
Yes, I'm NOT going SUKMA.
Yes, I have dates with my homeworks.
Of course, i am bloody free, call me.

Cheese,

2010-06-02T08:04:00.000-07:00

Dang, i've ran out of Pop Tarts.
oh and good news, i'm not going SUKMA.
YAYYYY.

well, for this year lah. haiyo.

High hopes dies fast.

2010-05-31T04:49:00.000-07:00

Provided if i was ever to be happy again, i will love everyone. I am still holding on to a thin string of believe that god has plans for me. Great plans.

Isn't the brain responsible for all your actions and all your emotions, but why does the heart get all the credit when the brain does all the job? I thought the brain was to blame for falling in love, for being in love, for being so hopeful, for hoping for o much, for remembering, for reminiscing?

Knock out some neurons out of me, i don't want to remember. Knock them out hard, how i wish i never met you. Someone so beautiful, someone so sweet. Someone who is potential to destroy the very last of me. Kill me, kill this memory. No one wants someone moping around in this world, busy being sad.

Drive, drive, drive. Drive away and away from whats making me to hold on. I don't want to hold on to something that was never there. Gripping on ever so tightly to thin air. In reality, you're falling. Falling down, ever so fast. Hitting the bottom, crashing and burning.

I walk, i crawl, losing everything and waiting for the downfall. Falling is a risk, loving is a risk. Risking your feelings for a stranger, it's stupid. It's moronic, it's idioitic, it's insane. It's beautiful. Though, falling seems like a very different risk? You know what to expect when you reach the bottom. A loud crash, an ending.

An ending? Liar.

After a fall, there's always a rise. An awakening, a new beginning. You just wait, i'll make you regret/. Loving you was not worht the wait. Im sorry im not good enough for you. Im sorry im a waste of your time. Thank you for bringing me down.

But then again, it turns out.
Maybe i was just in love with my imaginations?
Could be.
I don't love you.

Source of flight.

2010-04-17T19:43:00.000-07:00

They say the world is small. but how come the majority of us never have been around the world? never had seen every person? But the truth is, the world is larger than it seems.

still- how come there is never a space for forgiveness and for change? Stop me if im wrong, but let me explain what i mean first. You know right that everyone makes mistakes? huge ones or little ones, screw it all. Try as hard as you can- come blood, come sweat, come tears, come anger, come pain- to change. People will still look down at you with such disdain. Why? Why wont people give some room for a chance to change?

No wonder, Brandy Alexander- Queen Supreme, said "You can never base your life on the past or the present, tell me all about the future- your future. You can tell me all about the story that you've been through. but remember what you're telling was just a story."

thank you chuck.
i will now go get my copy of Fight Club.

All Night Dynamite.

2010-04-17T19:13:00.000-07:00

Techno/Tektonik/Dance lovers,

Check out this band.

They're pretty good. Sounds Cobra starship-ish, or is it just me? No?

No fiction here, all drama.

2010-04-11T03:35:00.000-07:00

In this life, you will never know what would happen to you or who you'll end up being.

You would never know, and you only can find out. It's wednesday, i convienced myslef. It's wednesday. And it was the only comforting thought then. I was in the toilet, half-late to school. It was 6.12am when mom woke me up. My senses were still drowned by that sleepy feeling, when i felt very very dizzy. "Awkward, i've been awake for long enough to feel dizzy, what's wrong? Ugh, wake up brain, it's already morning." So, not giving the shit, i closed the toilet door behind me. And that's when i got it all wrong, i felt the concrete floor shaking once,, and then twice- it was followed by noises made by hangers on the clothesline outside and what i saw, the water rippled. Oh, shoot me, don't tell me it's what i think it is. (Er, no. Amazingly, it wasn''t Godzilla.) I ran outside the toilet, not sure what to do and saw mom gripping on the windowsill, her face only reflected fear. Her eyes were wild on the big bottle of water that was on the kitchen counter, and those eyes landed on me- worried. She mouthed, "earthquake". I wasl staring at the water in the bottle- it was shaking so hard that you can even hear the sound. Mom repeated, her voice shaking, "Earthquake!". I ripped my eyes off the bottle and said, "It is." still berzerked. Mom being the sanguine, was still looking at the bottle. I being the cholaric, said "Im putting on clothes.", and she said, "Quick." I dashed off into my room and grabbed the first shirt i touched and put on my worn out jeans.

Funny, you would never know what will happened to you, your start, and your end of a day. It's wednesday, i said to myself. I grabbed the first thing i could think of- my phone, and my IC. Not knowing what would happen to ourselves, mom and i rushed down and looked for papie. Downstairs, where the ground was still not safe, we looked for papito. I being a teenager, took a moment to look at my reflection at a car's window. And i looked down at myself and thought, "Yeesh izati, out of all shirts you can grab, you grabbed your ugly ex-class t-shirt? you are that lame." The ground was still shaking, i know. I was very sure of myself that i wasn't asleep. I was very sure that this wasn't all a dream, and what i felt was real. And most of all, i was sure that this wasn't all owl city dillusional crap.

It was real, and i felt a bloody 7.5 ritcher earthquake.

Do i look like im kidding?

Snooker.

2010-03-26T21:03:00.000-07:00

Well, and that makes me the only one left.
Just got back from PISA, sent aizat to PLKN.
Oh that bloody thing.
It's ironic how in life, the thing you hate most,
you should be thankful for it.

How you hate it when you are forced to go on a freakin' camp. How you hate sitting in your addmaths class listening to basically what sounds like, "ax squared plus bx plus c equals to zero" or what i call it alien language. How you loathe judo practices. How you hate doing your homework. How you hate when mom asks you to wash the dishes and do the laundry. How you hate falling in love, and then losing it. How you hate when your parents wont give you your allowance. How you hate it when teachers say you're a bad influence to your friends.

Basically, the thing that does not kill you,
it makes you stronger.

No drama here, i flunked my Addmaths, thank you.
36/100, bravo. Got the answers, understood how to do it now,
can't believe it was bloody easy and i flunked it.
yeesh.

Well, anyways. It's now just me at home. Dilla's in Ipoh, Aizat's in Perlis.
Im stuck in Penang, two more yearsss! Hang in there. =.="

Make way for MacBeth.

2010-03-20T19:31:00.000-07:00

ugh, call me stupid.
because i am.

You bloody flirt.
i hate you.
go play with someone else's heart.