Constellations of Frustrations.

Life and Death, two things that comes together.
Two things you bear in mind a lot.

I noticed i never did dedicate a post to Chenko.. For a cat, he is extraordinary, he has a noble heart. He's still my baby brother. I remember the day he followed Aizat home, he was still so tiny and was all hungry. We fed him that night, and he stayed there- since then he started staying with us. I remember how Me, Aizat and Dilla begged Mom and Papie to keep him. And i remember when we moved. He ran straight under the kitchen cabinet and hid there for the whole day. Until i came back from school and called out his name, only then he came out of there.

I never did want to think of losing him, hear you me- Not even dare to think. It feels so short, he's now gone. As i got on the car and mom told me. Half of me couldn't believe what i had heard, half of me was just, numb- empty. I burst out into tears silently in the backseat, as i couldn't hold myself together anymore. Chenko meant so much too me. He was the one who would wake me up if i was late for school. He was the one who would fill the house with his meows when i was alone. He was the one that i use to run around the field with. He was the one who used to chase away snakes from the house. He was the one that i would hug when times get cold. He was the one that i use to fought with. He was the one who took care of mom.

Chenko truly did have a noble heart. Even for a cat, i respect him so much. It seems that he could be a better person than i am. I will miss you Chenkie, and i wont ever forget you. You're still my only little brother, and i love you so much.

RIP, Andriy Shevchenko July 2006 - April 2009.

And now i hear mews from a newborn kitten- a start of a new life. Loui is giving birth, mom wont let me see how many kittens are they yet. She's locked up in the cage with a cloth covering it. Poor kittens, their daddy died on their birthday. I can't seem to bear with it yet. Everything happened so fast. Everything.