You can forget our future plans.

Hyder said im too young to think of death.
but in my point of view, isn't dying early better? tak banyak dosa sgt, kan kan?
But then, it'll suck knowing you haven't live life.
But if this is life, then? haih, let's not talk about death.

Lies- everyone lies. For good and for bad. Everyone lie for a purpose, for a reason. And i, i lie for a better purpose. Everything was fine back then, why should i lie about anything when everything was good? when i loved the way it was? why should i lie for a change? tell me? Everyone lie, even to their friends, so they'll cover up the mistakes they made, so they wont hurt anyone. Like bullet for my valentine, would he hold me, if he knew my shame? but you'll still hurt them one way or another, the truth would hurt, but when they find out you're lying, it'll hurt to. so how? tell the truth and hurt someone really bad, or lie and pretend everything's okay. If it was me, i would lie, but i have to start learning telling the truth now. Like how you do, like how you were always honest to me. It did hurt, but it was a pleasure knowing that you weren't lying. I have my flaws, but you- you seem so perfect. Im the one who's made and still making so many mistakes, but you, you never did anything wrong. How can't i be more like you? I tell truths, but i end up ruining everything with it. I tell lies, and it'll be worst. Everything seems so easy when you do it, like i said, you are my hero. I still love you, and i will always do.

You should know, im not perfect- i have my flaws, i have my imperfection, i have my fault, and i have my weakness. And i want you to understand- i want to learn from my mistakes, i'll solve them myself. I know you're my hero, but i can take care of myself now. Even if i fall, i can get up. but of course it'll be harder to get up without you.