Im down, don't know what to do.

Depression
Could also be defined as mental suffering caused by loss or disappointment.
Oh wow, and i thought i was exaggerating.
Because that's what the dictionary said.

Just as i thought that i was having a bad day- God proved me wrong. Yes i WAS OBVIOUSLY having a very bad day, i had Geography. And Teh OBVIOUSLY pissed me off as usual. Reena wasn't at school, neither was Yasmin. I was fasting so i OBVIOUSLY couldn't even do internal cussing manifest. Or even eat to swallow my depression (or mental suffering, as mentioned above). I had Maths on the Third and Fourth period and it didn't bloody help my mood. I had use a motherfucken right-handed calligraphy pen for calligraphy. Hence, it turned out like horseshit. I was attacked by red ants at Laman Ilmu while watching "I Not Stupid 2". I was forced to watch a Mandarin movie without motherfucking subtitles, and was expected to understand every single bloody word. I stayed back and studied Sejarah and Maths. My Trials is on the 27th/29th (even the teachers doesn't know). I know im not going to do well. OBVIOUSLY because i am OBVIOUSLY not bullfucking ready. And for the grand prize winner, No one is texting me.

Just as i thought that my day was going down the fuckhole- My phone vibrated. Checked the caller ID- Aida called. she cried her heart out to me. And i shared her pain. Only her's was worst. Texted akram and somehow automatically got pissed- i don't know why, and i have no clue why it's always him that i'll get pissed off at. Instead of committing suicide or something stupid along the lines i reasoned with myself. There was deffo some good things and of course the bad ones.

the good part of life-
1) I still have time to revise.
2) My ex still cares for me- as a friend.
3) Im lucky im not really stuck in the web of love.
4) Im lucky i have friend i could talk to.
5) I am trusted by a lot of people.
6) I am better at right-handed calligraphy now, after a few pages of ABC.
7) I still CAN get a grip of myself to go through- two more months, and then PMR.
8) Sensei's not really mad at me.
9) My hair is not frizzy today.
10) I AM NOT IN LOVE.

the bad things in life-
1) I AM NOT IN LOVE.
2) I still haven't figured out my stupid seni project.
3) I can't go online at home.
4) i still have two bloody months to go till PMR.
5) I ONLY HAVE TWO BLOODY MONTHS TILL PMR.
6) I need to revise for Maths and Accounts, bad.
7) I am calcium deprived.
8) I have a photoshoot tomorrow and i have a huge zit on my forehead- okay, exaggerating- not huge, but i have one.
9) I am gaining weight, and i miss judo.
10) I don't understand one bit of Science, the chapter for electricity that is.
11) I am broke.
12) I think i have a crush, eventhough i said im not in love.
13) I need therapy. Bad.
14) Almost all of my teachers at school hates me, because im mistaken as a bad influence-slash- student.
15) Than reminds me that parents day is next Saturday.
16) My crush doesn't like me. Lame.
17) My negative side of life is definitely outweighing the scale.

I should go die, no seriously.
I am calcium deprived.