Funny, i thought i was the one who kept telling Dilla not to be guy-needy after her breakup, not to chase after guys. And why do i find myself in these situations? Why the f is it so hard to just be friends? is it so difficult to be a FRIEND? After asking myself over and over again, i decided that i don't love you, but i care for you. I care for you too much that i don't care if anything happened to me- but still, i do care about myself. Still i haven't digested the fact that the one who loves you and the one you love are never the same person. Call me naive, and shot gun me.
You don't care.
For once i don't understand myself. For once, im trying to put myself first before everyone else. For once im selfish, i want to be selfish- i hate to. Im taking back my love, and it's your lost, not mine. Still, i can't let you go, because you're apart of my life, apart of my friends'. Screw the fact that im too dependent on you, i can walk on my own now.
BE SELFISH.
And life's good.
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