Helicopter.

I couldn't sleep the night before.
I had the lines from Bloc Party's song called Helicopter playing over and over in my head.

Im thinking six, six, six,
Im thinking six,

I was overwhelmed by lack of self-esteem.
I didn't think i could make it,
i don't think i could make anyone proud.

Are you hoping for a miracle?

We left the house early,
mom lost her handbag on our way off to school,
ended up driving without liecense,
mom said, "God's planning something better for me than my lost handbag. Im expecting it from you."

Are you hoping for a miracle?

Skip to the part where Ilangko started announcing the names who scored straight a's.
name after name after name.
mine? not yet.
Fhatin started crying, i started praying,
"Dear god, please. For mom, i want to make her happy for once."

Name after name after name.
Norisma Husna, Siti Sarah, Siti Khalilah,
Siti Hanisah, Lyana Husni, and the rest.

As i was repeating the same line over and over again,
hoping god would hear me,
my phone in my pocket vibrated,
i cursed out, who the eff la kacau?
i read the text, it was Afiq
"Wei berapa A hang dapat?"

Ilangko announced, "Nur Izati Binti Hashim."
Wtf?

Yasmin said, "Izati! Cepat la, go up there!"
Fhatin said, "Omg, hang dapat weiii!"

Mom cried, Dilla cried.
I cried.

It was happy tears. I ran up the stage towards Sharifah Afifah.
I huged Norisma and everyone. All of my friends we're up there.
All of my friends are also down there.
I was hard to be happy when you know not everyone made it.

But this is just the begining, thing will work out better for each and everyone of us.
I know so, we just need to believe.