Psh, as if i've got lots.
Ah yes, I am back updating for once.
It's been a while, it's been a while.
A few days ago, St. George had lost one of it's precious students.
Only a few days ago, we had lost someone very dearly to us.
Al-Fatihah, Amirah Binti Fadzil.
You are beautiful, intelligent, and talented.
Your lost is deeply felt by all of us,
thank you for opening our eyes, and thank you for changing my life.
Moga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas roh sahabatku yang tersayang ini.
Okay, so back to what i really wanted to write about,
You know since in form 4, every single time someone sees any of my scribbles/sketches/drawings they would bug me and bombard me with questions like;
Honestly, it's sooooooo tiring listening to it.
I would usually ignore them and walk away or just smile at them,
but now maybe i should really answer these questions.
Well, here are my reasons why I am not in Science-Arts stream or Econ-Arts stream:
1) In 2010, I wanted to become a Lawyer.
So yeah, when we had to choose a stream, i first took accounts thinking that i did not want to waste my 3 years learning perdagangan, though i did consider Arts. When i lost interest in accounts two days after Form 4 classes started, i knew i had to switch streams. So the option was- EST, English Literature, Pure science, and of course Arts. I of course didn't see how Arts would be useful for me in the future, went for something to do with language since i wanted to do Law, and pushed Arts aside. I guess I was wrong, I now want to do Architecture.
2) Due dates.
Arts students and their assignments. I remembered seeing my senior, Ashley, stressing about her Art assignment like for half of the year when i was in Form 3. Since then, i became a bit more reluctant to jump on board. I of course being a very punctual person (not), can never ever take Arts in school this way.
3) The Teacher.
Chan Bee Chin. She don't- no, let me correct that, she never does- get my perspective of art. Enough said.
4) Random moodswings.
I scribble and ruin my drawings when i don't feel like drawing anymore. Like that one time in form 3, we had to draw a portrait of someone. And i chose Brandon Urie, lead singer of Panic! At The Disco. I drew a moustache, coloured his nostrils and sclera really black, and made his hair looked like Marilyn Monroe's just because i felt like it. Obviously i ended up not passing up the assignment. (This is another reason that is connected to point 2.) And Chan Bee Chin had to chase me for it, since she had to give marks for it. I ended up drawing Justin Timberlake, which i found his face in some magazine at Laman Ilmu and drew it on the spot to pass up. His nose was crooked.
5) My obsessions for other things.
I noticed this one thing about myself when I'm drawing or doing Arts. When i have an obsession on something, i tend to ONLY draw it and nothing else. Like that moment when i was really really really obsessed about P!ATD (Ryan Ross, the guitarist, to be exact) in 2008 and 2009. We were given an assignment where we had to do some patterns for this Harmoni shiz. Then i ended up drawing Ryan Ross, using random patterns. It failed, obviously. And Cikgu Maziani didn't like it and made me re-do it. So i did some colourful shiz and drew Ryan at the bottom-left corner. I've did a Carpool Poster of band members that i liked- I remember there was Panic!, Fall Out Boy, Greenday, Paramore, Gabe Saporta from Cobra Starship, My Chemical Romance and a few more people- all sitting on one car. I actually won Kepujian for it. And i bet if i was in Arts stream now, all my drawings are probably Bleach characters, go figure.
6) I never listen to the Arts teacher.
Stubborn i shall say. I would never change my work if the teacher advices me to add on or edit something. As long as i am happy with it, i leave it that way. If the teacher asks me to add on a flower, i'll draw a butterfly. If she asks me to put a butterfly at the corner, i'll draw a dragon. And this usually cause me to lose a serious amount of marks. So i didn't want to risk my SPM year for things like this.
7) I hate watercolours.
In exams for the whole three years, I only used colour pencils. I remembered using poster colour only once or twice. I like penciled arts more than painted art. In Form 3, Chan Bee Chin didn't like me using pencil colour and gave me a 10 over 20 marks for my drawing. And i got really pissed.
8) Drafts and output produced.
My drafts and my artworks, are like two different things. Like the sun and the earth. I draft it this way, but what i would draw would come out very very very differently. Not really helpful in exams, i tell you that.
9) Colours.
I despise mt works coloured, i like it monochrome. Yes, again, the teachers aren't very happy with that. Maziani once called me "Emo" for it, and Chan Bee Chin once called me "Dull" because i passed up a black and white painting.
10) My artworks itself.
Most of them aren't appropriate, to school that is. I drew a person in a possessed-like pose, screaming in anger. It was for the experiment on how to use different technique of painting, and it was dry on wet. I actually painted it red with a touch of black, to symbolize angst and sadness. Obviously teachers hated it. And I've been wondering ever since then, don't they have ANY emotions at all? School's seriously limiting your expressions man! All you can draw is butterflies and flowers and happy faces. Where's the reality, bitches?
Only a few days ago, we had lost someone very dearly to us.
Al-Fatihah, Amirah Binti Fadzil.
You are beautiful, intelligent, and talented.
Your lost is deeply felt by all of us,
thank you for opening our eyes, and thank you for changing my life.
Moga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas roh sahabatku yang tersayang ini.
Okay, so back to what i really wanted to write about,
You know since in form 4, every single time someone sees any of my scribbles/sketches/drawings they would bug me and bombard me with questions like;
"Izati, why aren't you in Arts stream?"
"You should really really take arts, you know."
"Why won't you take Arts?"
"You are wasting your priceless talent, Izati!"
"Wow, are you in Arts stream? No? WTF, why no?"
Honestly, it's sooooooo tiring listening to it.
I would usually ignore them and walk away or just smile at them,
but now maybe i should really answer these questions.
Well, here are my reasons why I am not in Science-Arts stream or Econ-Arts stream:
1) In 2010, I wanted to become a Lawyer.
So yeah, when we had to choose a stream, i first took accounts thinking that i did not want to waste my 3 years learning perdagangan, though i did consider Arts. When i lost interest in accounts two days after Form 4 classes started, i knew i had to switch streams. So the option was- EST, English Literature, Pure science, and of course Arts. I of course didn't see how Arts would be useful for me in the future, went for something to do with language since i wanted to do Law, and pushed Arts aside. I guess I was wrong, I now want to do Architecture.
2) Due dates.
Arts students and their assignments. I remembered seeing my senior, Ashley, stressing about her Art assignment like for half of the year when i was in Form 3. Since then, i became a bit more reluctant to jump on board. I of course being a very punctual person (not), can never ever take Arts in school this way.
3) The Teacher.
Chan Bee Chin. She don't- no, let me correct that, she never does- get my perspective of art. Enough said.
4) Random moodswings.
I scribble and ruin my drawings when i don't feel like drawing anymore. Like that one time in form 3, we had to draw a portrait of someone. And i chose Brandon Urie, lead singer of Panic! At The Disco. I drew a moustache, coloured his nostrils and sclera really black, and made his hair looked like Marilyn Monroe's just because i felt like it. Obviously i ended up not passing up the assignment. (This is another reason that is connected to point 2.) And Chan Bee Chin had to chase me for it, since she had to give marks for it. I ended up drawing Justin Timberlake, which i found his face in some magazine at Laman Ilmu and drew it on the spot to pass up. His nose was crooked.
5) My obsessions for other things.
I noticed this one thing about myself when I'm drawing or doing Arts. When i have an obsession on something, i tend to ONLY draw it and nothing else. Like that moment when i was really really really obsessed about P!ATD (Ryan Ross, the guitarist, to be exact) in 2008 and 2009. We were given an assignment where we had to do some patterns for this Harmoni shiz. Then i ended up drawing Ryan Ross, using random patterns. It failed, obviously. And Cikgu Maziani didn't like it and made me re-do it. So i did some colourful shiz and drew Ryan at the bottom-left corner. I've did a Carpool Poster of band members that i liked- I remember there was Panic!, Fall Out Boy, Greenday, Paramore, Gabe Saporta from Cobra Starship, My Chemical Romance and a few more people- all sitting on one car. I actually won Kepujian for it. And i bet if i was in Arts stream now, all my drawings are probably Bleach characters, go figure.
6) I never listen to the Arts teacher.
Stubborn i shall say. I would never change my work if the teacher advices me to add on or edit something. As long as i am happy with it, i leave it that way. If the teacher asks me to add on a flower, i'll draw a butterfly. If she asks me to put a butterfly at the corner, i'll draw a dragon. And this usually cause me to lose a serious amount of marks. So i didn't want to risk my SPM year for things like this.
7) I hate watercolours.
In exams for the whole three years, I only used colour pencils. I remembered using poster colour only once or twice. I like penciled arts more than painted art. In Form 3, Chan Bee Chin didn't like me using pencil colour and gave me a 10 over 20 marks for my drawing. And i got really pissed.
8) Drafts and output produced.
My drafts and my artworks, are like two different things. Like the sun and the earth. I draft it this way, but what i would draw would come out very very very differently. Not really helpful in exams, i tell you that.
9) Colours.
I despise mt works coloured, i like it monochrome. Yes, again, the teachers aren't very happy with that. Maziani once called me "Emo" for it, and Chan Bee Chin once called me "Dull" because i passed up a black and white painting.
10) My artworks itself.
Most of them aren't appropriate, to school that is. I drew a person in a possessed-like pose, screaming in anger. It was for the experiment on how to use different technique of painting, and it was dry on wet. I actually painted it red with a touch of black, to symbolize angst and sadness. Obviously teachers hated it. And I've been wondering ever since then, don't they have ANY emotions at all? School's seriously limiting your expressions man! All you can draw is butterflies and flowers and happy faces. Where's the reality, bitches?
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